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busy busy busy but good busy
this morning at crossfit we did fran. i’ve never done fran before. i scaled - used 22.5kg for the thrusters and a band for the pull ups. i finished in 9:31 and did the last 9 thrusters unbroken. our strength set was more thrusters - 4 sets of 3 reps, and i managed 32.5kg (which was my old 1RM) and did 2 at 35kg (which is my clean & jerk 1RM) and failed on the last one because i overbalanced. but i’m v. pleased i’m getting stronger.
i like the way things are at the moment
josh and i are going to watch the buffy the vampire slayer film from 1992 (!!!) and then i am going to sleep
i wish we had enough internet to watch the crossfit games but i guess i can always just catch up on the leaderboard
Tagged: #today has been a good day
it’s strange, going through the education system in school and then through the education system in uni because somehow i fell into believing the idea that to be a worthwhile member of society i needed a degree and then i needed to use that degree for some kind of Important Job. when i was studying astrophysics, it was research, and i’m not sure what it was for philosophy/english, but it was something vague involving a desk and possibly some analysis.
but when i sit down and think about it, really think about what i’ve done and what i’m doing and what i want to do, i always come to the conclusion that i want to do something practical, something purposeful, something where i can maybe use my hands or see actual physical results. swim teaching is great for that - i’m in the water and i can help kids swim and i can watch them improve and i’m not staring at a screen or sitting at a desk and it’s great. i’ve been trying to think of other jobs that i could do that have a similar list of tasks.
it’s hard for me to accept this, because i’m worried that if i get a job that doesn’t directly use my degree people will tell me that i wasted all that time at university and i’ll feel [even more] guilty about spending my parents’ money, but i really don’t feel like the last four-and-a-half years were a waste. they were difficult, yes, and sometimes things got very bad, but i needed to do it and i’m better for it.
my father told me once that i was the first mcdicken to go to university which means i’m the first mcdicken to graduate from university but while that makes me all warmfuzzy inside, when i look at the people who i have spent my life looking up to and emulating, the majority of them are not university educated. they still lead important, fulfilling lives and they are not lesser people for the lack of a degree.
so i need to understand and accept that i can do anything i want to and i shouldn’t feel like i have to do something just because i have a degree. no work is more important than other work. i am no less for choosing one over the other.
okay fine i guess i’ll shower